Years ago, I undertook a solitary three month retreat. In silence and bringing attention to within, these are some things I learnt:
1. Constant grasping to formations of ideas such as truth, peace, retreat, progress. Listen carefully when you hear yourself or others saying words such as "growing" and "evolving". Where are you at that moment?
2. Fear of letting things be the way they are.
3. Thinking something has to be going on for something to be happening.
4. Idle speculation is charming. How does intellectual masturbation charm you?
5. We are all the frog in the well imprisoned by our limited vision of reality. From this we assert our "truth" and refuse to listen to others.
6. In an open room, one can see many things distinctly. In a crowded room, one can't see anything. Same with the mind.
7. Solitude - thank you for being my friend.
8. It's a big relief to see that the sky changes.
9. Every action has an intention. One has the freedom to know a thought for a thought without acting upon it.
10. To be present, one must drop the idea of what being present is or is not.
My name is Kathrina Peterson and I invite you to participate in this forum around awareness and movement. I have been a Buddhist meditator for over 20 years and have been exploring in depth what it means to develop as a human being: physically, mentally, emotionally and spiritually. This is my passion, both on a personal and a professional level. I welcome you to share thoughts around what it means to be awake.